last night wedding I suddenly realize I did like/crush on the groom... bullshit huh.. grow up together bring the unnecessary memory that i won't to remember... i hate to admit i did crush on my brother's best-friend and one is the groom and another already married with 3 kids and he still wan to hook up with me,.what did he thinking.. i did fall out before but its long time a go when he single a.k.a bachelor and i don't to taste the same gum already spit..hush right..but its the true.. and now i hanging with 2 guys and one that i already know i cant make it true..but still we rather live in fantasy than wake up in reality..for true..its wasn't hard for him..he already had a stable life..had nice wife and cute son..i felt like a whore and slut when involve with him..but i can't help it...we already had a feeling to each other before i met my Romeo.oh now i making a nickname of the character..but it true..i still can't pronounce the name in public even-though my blog is private but still i scared to admit..back to the story..the unfulfilled love chase and haunt me a few years later..when he..and me..get lay down and come clean with our feeling to each other...hurm.. karma will slap me..i knew it..i just scared to think it... but Romeo being badass to me before..by loving other girl that have blood connection with me,..how am i suppose to handle that..Romeo swear to change but my heart can't truly believe on him like before.. i love him..i do.. but i am desperately wanted to be bad girl so i can felt a lil bit relieve cause of betraying myself by hurting my on feeling..trusting him so much..but now he showing some positive progress..and all i got is regret and guilt.. why??? there a lot of fish in the sea..why am i always met shark???
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