Bloodsucker Love

its been a while I distract myself from Edward..the identical vampire which is coincidently having the same faces with the guy who act as vampire... literally he was younger a year than me...but its wasn't stop me from crushing and falling for him... I am such a sucker.. this feeling being so fragile... watching him from far away.. crystal clear that he with someone else.. remind me about my tangle forbidden love with someone husband... it haunt me down..every detail...suck my blood in my vein.. am i ungrateful person.. this whole drama i didn't to act.. i just live with it.. when yani told i have everything in my life..but she doesn't really get and understand the situation i am into... i keep loosing someone i want..someone i love.. someone i hoping to be mine... i tried my best to be on the right track.. but the road doesn't always straight..doesn't always in good condition... my days doesn't always seem bright in sunshine..there will always be thunderstorm and rain to wash away my dream and my happiness.. i keep losing hope..losing people.. tonight.. when i go into his page.. looking his face.. realizing he wasn't mine... why everything seem so hard.. i mismatch every pieces that falling in front me.. i cant pick it and put all together... i miss the drama between us.. i guess the movie is finish..everyone leaving the theatre... only ME left staring at an empty screen.. ALONE all by MYSELF....